I often think back on our newborn days and remember being in the midst of it all, thinking that this was my life forever and I’d never find my way to happiness again. Everyone kept saying how quickly they grow, and I felt like I was stuck in some time warp that I couldn’t get out of. So I’m always reminding myself that there are other Moms out there who are going through this period right now, if that’s you – know that the rest of us are sending you love and know that everything will be okay, and that there is a light shining bright for you at the end of the tunnel.
I’ve met so many amazing Moms on my journey and today I want to share with you Shane’s story. Shane planned for a homebirth and being really fit and healthy she believed there would not be any complications. After hours of trying, she had to have an emergency c-section and the trauma that followed sent her into a deep depression. I can relate so much to Shane’s story as we share a very similar experience. What I realized on my journey of healing, is that almost every Mom has some sort of trauma attached to their birth experience, even if they had ‘the perfect birth’ – they almost always talk about the depression and guilt they went through after the birth.
I was browsing on Facebook a few months ago and came across a video that Shane had posted named “I want to be honest” and it brought me to tears watching it. It’s so raw and beautiful and her story is one that I think many Moms can relate to. I asked Shane if she’d be keen to do a collaboration with us and she lit up at the opportunity!
We went down to the forest one afternoon and it was really a magical experience. There was a soft breeze, the air was warm and the forest felt like it was giving us a big hug and just holding us there. The big trees acted like an ampitheatre for the sound of the music playing in the background and the stage was set. A special moment in time and I’m so excited to share this video with you today.
I decided to rename it “Journey to Motherhood” for this project as when I watch Shane dancing, her body language, her facial expressions, it reminds me so much of what that 1st year is like with your newborn baby.
It really is a dance and a journey of finding your space as a Mom in your new world. There is heartache and sadness as you let go of the life that was, but also joy and happiness as you move into your new role of being a mother.
Thank you so much to everyone who was involved in helping this production become a reality. Please feel free to leave a comment below, we’d love to hear what you think.
Update: Shane is now a Mom of 2, and we filmed a second dance video with her which you can watch here.